late entry just waffling on... gonna work clean a while.. !

stars for tomorrow, leaving the past behind, moving into the future i hope its nice, ...not scary,
cos there are things i,ll be too scared to ever do again.. i,m just too fragile and soft,
if i was hard and tough itd be easy i suppose, but i,m not like others. no use pretending.
doing something that scares me doesnt bring joy, theres no joy where theres fear.


wonder if anyones ever had a spell put on them that's how i feel,... today and yesterday esp.
outta the blue...
and stranger things have happened I'm sure, why now when i thought
it,d eased a bit..
very spooky, will it ever diminish? doesnt look like it..

says too i have to leave the past stable i don,t even know what that means.
glass of red n a cheese bun to cheer me up