my brothers going to miami, even though i havent seen him i dont like it, the thought of him being so far away its the other side of the world. and ive just remembered id be about 23 my brother came to mams and asked is our gillian alright? mam said why? he said he,d had a dream.
people can have intuitive dreams. spooky. theres nothing as weird as life. ive gotta keep a picture in my head .. the future. it,ll come and go, the pic. i can only try.

i dont think for 1 minute anyones interested in reading my drivel but just in case i apologise wholeheartedly for the downer im on but im going through turmoil, anxiety, sadness,
tears, but ive no other way of getting it out ive no one to talk to, it,s
fear about having to go out feeling like this, about living life ill,

but i know without doubt when my energy levels rise it won,t be a prob.
my advice to folk in here is, ignore me.