surfaced and what can i say? nowt really.......except its freezing..must be 5 below... and ive got this really weird feeling............
woke with a start at 5.48am don,t know why the numbers stick in my noggin, but i,m just the one in the middle of it all...dreaming...can,t remember what yet, itll filter in later..
3 piece arrived..thats it really. i,m full of cold again..i,m not going out today. it would only be the garden,....

dads going into the hospital today so ive gotta keep going doing all the things i do as normal,
cos with everything .?....ive got that funny feeling in my throat and dare,t
think of some things or i,ll just crumble and i have stuff to sort.

with me everythings the proverbial, behind the painted smile, my fave ever song,
dont know why all my faves are the saddest...of all time..!