was gonna work I've actually done nowt i went up for a rest then got stuff on my mind.

I said at the start of the blog it'd be a true account of life with M,E. low energy syndrome and i haven't even touched the surface yet. living and coping alone with it.

If i had my time over again i would do what i wished which was to crawl away and stay there until better. the middle of hamsterly forest in a tent.
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I've done it in here, everything i do is separate from everyone else.
until I've fulfilled my wish, which is to be well and find peace of mind i need space and time..

I live a very solitary existence, i choose to live like this..but its my only choice really, and i have no resistance from the family now. although it wasn't always like this.

if at the end of it i have no one i can,t be blamed. its one more thing to be chalked down to the casualty of illness..

.ive already said all this which shows the state of my memory.
im so fed up...

no one in my house even knows i blog not really.. there were complaints today about how long im in front of the computer i took no notice..
they know i listen to radio but not what......
i listen on my mobile plugged in, im sure i,ll end up with radiation sickness or something..

..its been my saviour at times.....

no one even knows im a truckshunter..