limbo

I know whats wrong actually, ive gone through this change, its not sudden, happened slowly while ive been ill, over the years ive changed and ive lost the relationships i had, nothings the same so i,m in limbo, i can,t go back to the way things were and i don,t know how to go forward. but i can,t stay like this, well i can stay me, but the way ive lived my life cant..
i don,t fit in now, disconnected, yet everyone else around seems happy and content, i think to myself wish i could too..,..maybe i will over time.. i,ll have to simple as that...

theres people worse off than me i know that,...
but even though i have all the material things i need
they arent enough and mean nothing at all..empty, they don,t fulfill me.