Ive surfaced and its been a weird old day.
hardly seen anyone yet havent felt alone at all, in fact less alone today than any other day.
Im starting to feel refreshed after a nap. it must be years.
just cant explain it so best sit on it a while. spooky stuffs going on big time too.
feel a bit like a secret agent.

havent watched any tv its gotta be months and that cant be normal. but if i dont want to no point in forcing it. its been utter peace n quiet this after. im a bit hungry havent felt hungry in years either, no appetite,
ive noticed ive been scraping more off my plate than goes on if you get my drift..
ive ate to keep alive basically somedays after 12am i just forgot.

theres other stuff though i,m not sure about at all but i can only go with it. i dont understand the meaning of,
sad stuff too but if i think about it i,ll set myself off again which is whats happened right on time when im gonna begin my tea. tears dripping..off my chin,
wondered how long it would be...just sadness..im pathetic really.