went to sleep at 4pm. just woke sad. thats all i can say really.
throat sore, the full works , didn,t make cards today after all,
did,nt have the heart, don,t bother with much telly either it has to be summat awesome to keep me interested,
spellbounds the word but theres nothing.
I do like films like highlander, brave heart, but all good ones have sad endings.
maybe a good murder mystery would do it that,ll keep me guessing but there,s none.
i still would,nt watch it.
the kitchens my home., where the computer is, and ive a sanctuary so i,m very lucky in that respect..some people don,t have that. I know that.
Ive been out of my own living room for so long i don,t look right if i,m in there. that sounds gobble de gook. but there you go,
ive no intention of sitting in front of the box just out of habit
i don,t know how people do it, what keeps thier attention?
and if i watch a prog i usually know how it ends, how i don,t know......or think, i could have made it a better ending. truth is i,m very hard to please.
If i went to disneyland it,d hold no delight cos the way i feel i could shut my eyes and see it all in front of me, for "nowt" this has become second nature.
hoping tomorrows gonna be better. think this is what comes from giving up or losing some parts of your life, to whatever,... illness. circumstance, im gonna have to try and pull my self out of it, its fed up avenue down my way..another looooonng night and it,s quiet, empty. truth is i,m low and when low the immune system slows down. our bodies are wondrous things and we just abuse them. don,t give them what they need. cos we don,t bother looking inside. i do a bit too much. but never pay heed..
no point telling fibs cos i wanna look back on this and think have i made any progress.?..at the moment it,s a big NO...
bought the "twizzles" proper doggy choc drops they won,t touch them.. ! even they look fed up.
and it,s blowing up a gale outside, black as night,.. prob cos it is...
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