dreams

I started having this worry when he went to play footy on a sunday, i sat and couldnt get him off my mind, went on for weeks it was so strong i started doing this protection thingy i do a lot, surround people with white loving healing light, theory is its a universal energy, healing.
I pictured the goal, and son. the same spot always came to mind.

one sat night after a football reunion we fell out over summat daft like him being late,
he left that morning without a bye,
i just caught the back of him go past the window, i had this dread..

looked out at lunchtime and a neighbour was coming up the street, i had a strange feeling so came in, the neighbour knocked i knew as soon as i looked at his face,
he said "gillian is your husband in"?
i said "no, why" with dread,, "well its your son, he went to score a goal he was through and he,s got a bit of an injury".

the rest of the team came running up the street still in footy strips,one of his mates crying,,
the manager came up saying "we are waiting of the ambulance" no one would tell me,
me panicking like ninety, eventually he said, "he,s broken his leg the goalie came out and connected with him"
i thought theres more to it, mind working overtime as per,
i just knew the answer. its instinct really,

so i asked again, "its not one of those breaks where the bone is through the skin is it "
hoping someone would say "why no gillian,dinnit be so daft " nobody answered,,,
double fracture.. hospital a week. shock all kinds but he,s fine now..
the healing didnt prevent it but i think it could have been worse..

i feel things and sometimes wish i didnt...