was gonna cardmake i didnt, i wrote then went to sleep. thinking i can,t change some things not even with a magic wand so it,s groundhog day and lets pretend basically.
square one. its like ludo without the fun.
had a relative that had to win or the board went up, counters the lot. we played snakes and ladders for money. not lots,.... pennies.

came across my reflexology book while looking for something else, strange how you look for one thing and find another.
reflexology is a practice of applying pressure to certain points on hands and feet to aid health. tapping, thumb walking, ect.
it goes back to the egyptians who used it as a medical practice.

every part of the hand or foot corresponds to a certain part of the body.

dark outside.
news time, i don,t watch it.
I,m not really bothered what goes on in the world we become indoctrinated,
i read a line from madonna, "don,t put faith or trust in anyone, especially not big institutions, take responsibility for yourself. don,t rely on anyone, to do it for you."

I always thought well if so and so says its true then it must be.
that goes back to an incident for want of a better word when my son was a baby, and p,n, depression.
I asked for help and ended up going down a nighmare road that i knew in heart wasn,t true,i trusted, i got myself out of it.

moral of the tale, i,ll never ever swallow a pill or anything i,m told is good for me. no way.

half of what we see and read is rubbish, sensationalism at it,s best, we all are supposed to be living in neat little boxes tied off with pink ribbon, done and dusted, don,t question.

everythings in order when really it,s far from in order.
but if it keeps folk happy, running on the treadmill of life, away from the reality and truth, thats how it has to be. sad .

I glance at the paper, thats it really, thinking if we don,t follow everyone else we don,t fit in, well i don,t wanna fit in really. ,

maybe in the 16th century or in 2030 i,d have been ok, mam phoned last night she can,t even make a telephone call without worry of someone up the street picking up the conversation, shes already had a few instances,, we can,t talk anymore, not freely.
george orwell, big brother. its exactly so. listening to my music, whole again,. computers been making a weird noise for days , maybe they don,t last long, im getting a laptop next cos i just got tired and weary . laptops can be used anywhere.