woke 7.30am just stayed there till 845. raining, cold damp. gonna try to figure out my realplayer, i may be some time, .. may never get my head round technical things,
life included, but at least im honest. everything baffles me..
checked my stars and nearly went back to bed. new beginnings, endings,
all kinds,, very scary...dont like the unknown. but i just go where life leads me... reminds me of a song...just pop into my head at all times..
trust in what god thinks is best for me.........but if i dont get my own way i still dig my heels in and kick up a mighty fuss..

. had that sick feeling now and again since yesterday, in between all the spooky stuff, bamboozled,
kind you get before first day at school,, pre school nerves,
dipping toes in the water,... weird.. cos i can,t swim..